My church has recently split their youth group up into junior high and high school, and since I volunteer in the youth ministry, I now have two youth groups that I am attempting to keep track of.

I had no clue that it would be difficult to keep the two straight, but everything feels jumbled up in my brain. I feel like I need to bring pads of paper to each group and take notes because my mind is mixing everything up together. I have Tuesday night youth group, Wednesday night youth group, and Sunday morning junior high. On top of that, I have two college groups I regularly attend, and various other biddings for my time.

I just feel like I want to scream because I'm totally not in control. I am showing up to each event wondering what is going on and just having to shut up and watch and see where the night goes. I don't really like that. I like knowing and feeling like I have some sort of control or knowledge of the situations. So this is definitely a different experience, and one I am still very much getting used to.

I know God is smiling, though, because He knows more than anyone how much I love control and how much this goes outside of my comfort zone in every way. Although in comparison to the major things of life, this is small, it still is getting to me and it is still a chance for me to practice surrender and trust in Him, even when I feel a little lost and confused at times. I just need a little patience and I'll get to see what God is doing in it all.