This song is ringing more true as my life goes on. The more I face, the more I see that God is holy and soverign, and that I don't have to know everything; I just need to try to be as close to Him and His example as possible. And I need to worship and recognize that throughout my life, despite whatever is happening.
"Holy" by Nichole Nordeman
Holy by Nichole Nordeman
How many roads did I travel Before I walked down one that led me to You? How many dreams did unravel Before I believed in a hope that was true? And how long? How far? What was meant to fulfill, only empied me still? And all You ever wanted
All of me, on my knees Singing holy, holy Somehow, all that matters now is You are holy, holy Holy, holy
How many deaths did I die Before I was awakened to new life again? How many half-truths did I bear witness to 'Til the proof was disproved in the end? And how long? How far? What was meant to illuminate shadowed me still? And all You ever wanted
All of me, on my knees Singing holy, holy Somehow, all that matters now is You are holy, holy
And all I have is gratitude To offer You
Holy, holy Somehow, all that matters now is You are holy You are holy, holy Somehow, all that matters now is You are holy, holy
All of me, on my knees Singing holy, holy Somehow, all that matters now is You are holy, holy Holy, holy Holy
The dinner was fun. Mason was very gentlemanlike, which was fun for me, because I got to be very ladylike. I could tell he had been given hints from his family because he did things like open doors and make sure it was my night. I think I got kind of spoiled...okay very spoiled. We went to Olive Garden for dinner, which was nice and friendly. They were very nice to us because we were dressed up and it was obvious it was prom night. We went to the dance afterwards and although it wasn't great, it was okay. They only played rap music, so there was nothing to dance to. That really sucked because I wanted to dance and I never really got to. After the dance, we went to Mason's house to watch a movie. As soon as we got there, Mason decided he was going to wait on me and make sure that I was comfortable and relaxed, since I had been doing things all day (even though he had, also). If I even tried to get up, he would tell me to sit down and then he ould proceed to do whatever I was going to do when I stood up. I didn't protest too much, because I had been being treated this nicely all night and I had given up on protesting. After he was satisfid that I was as comfortable as possible, we started the movie. Apparently, I was too comfortable, because when the movie started, I layed back, and fell asleep (after being given permission to do so by Mason when he saw me laying down instead of sitting). Now, I don't sleep well with lights or sounds, so to fall asleep during a movie takes an especially tired girl. And I was. I was woken up soon after I fell asleep because Mason and his dad decided I should go home because I was so tired. So I went home.
All in all, it was a very fun night and I really enjoyed myself. Going with a friend was especially cool because there was no pressure to do anything or to misbehave. We could just relax and enjoy ourselves.
I got up at 7:15 to go do a fundraiser for the Sacramento Alternatives Pregnancy Center, and didn't get back from that until 12:00. At 12:30, I went and had my hair and make-up done by Sheri Eubanks. She was kind enough to volunteer to do it for no cost and did a fantastic job. After that, my mom and I went and grabbed Audrey and Mason and picked up the corsage and boutonniere at SaveMart. Then we went and did pictures at about 2:30. At 3:15, I headed over to The Last Tangle Salon on the corner of Beech and Greenback, next to the Annie's Breakfast. The lady who did my nails, Belinda, scheduled my appointment on Thursday and came into work on Saturday for the sole purpose of doing my nails. She got there right before the appointment and left right after. We had a great conversation ranging from friends, the ball, and family, to abortion, church, and sexual abstinence. Yeah, a lot to cover in an hour, lol. But I found out a lot about her and that we have a lot in common. If I ever get my nails done again, I am going back and having her do them. She is so awesome. Now I am home and trying to de-stink myself and fix make-up before dinner. More later.
If you get burned by jalapenos, there's not much you can do about it. There are several "remedies" that aren't permanent, and that can lessen the overall pain, but nothing around the house can, except detergent. If you go to the emergency room, they also can't do too much for you. Basically, you have to suffer. And if you treat it promptly, the pain can be greatly reduced and last way less long.
I had jalapeno capsaicin on my hands for about 8 hours before I could get anywhere to treat it. Nothing I tried that I got from family, friends, or online helped longer than after the water from rinsing it off my hands dried. Even today, I have a slight residual burning in a few of my fingers, but nothing like yesterday.
Here are a few things I tried: Dawn dish soap, baking soda, lemon juice, rubbing alcohol, plain hand soap, aloe vera, blowing on my hands, and a variety of other things. All temporarily helped (except for maybe blowing on my hands), none permanently helped. br>I guess the best thing to do would be prevention. Wear something over your hands when working with jalapenos and wash your hands thoroughly and completely after you are finished. Notice I said AND. Do both, because jalapenos burn.
Oh, and by the way, don't touch anything or put your hands in your mouth, nose, or near your eyes. You could transfer the capsaicin there also, spreading the pain around.
If you ever cut up jalapenos, wash your hands well!!!!
I cut some up today in Foods class and my teacher didn't warn me to wash my hands better than a rinse with soap after I was done. About 11 hours later, my hands are red and hurt like I spilled boiling water all over them. This sucks and nothing is making the burning go away, it's only getting worse. I am in pain.
So, moral of the story: when using hot peppers, wash your hands afterwards.
This is a fun song we have started singing in youth group. I like it especially because you can take the words "holiness", "faithfulness", and "brokenness" and switch them out for other ones, like "purity" and "righteousness", which we used in youth group this week.
Holiness (Take My Life)
"Holiness (Take My Life)" on the album Worship Jamz
Holiness, holiness is what I long for Holiness is what I need Holiness is what You want from me (what you want from me!)
Holiness, holiness is what I long for Holiness is what I need Holiness, holiness is what You want from me (what you want from me!)
Take my heart and form it Take my mind, transform it Take my will, conform it To Yours, to Yours, oh Lord
Faithfulness, faithfulness is what I long for Faithfulness is what I need Faithfulness, faithfulness is what You want from me (what You want from me!)
Take my heart and form it Take my mind, transform it Take my will, conform it To Yours, to Yours, oh Lord
Brokenness, brokenness is what I long for Brokenness is what I need Brokenness, brokenness is what You want from me (what You want from me!)
Take my heart and form it Take my mind, transform it Take my will, conform it To Yours, to Yours, oh Lord
Holiness, holiness is what I long for Holiness is what I need Holiness, holiness is what You want from me
I've got my doubts and I've got my question It's nothing new 'cause I've seen them before And I've got my share of false relations And it always seems they're knocking on my door You said that I should see the light But sometimes faith is blind
How do you know How do you know What I'm supposed to be doing Why do you go Why do you go on Thinking you know my faith So many times I've lost my step But never lost my way How do you know How do you know When I don't know myself
You're thinking that you've got all the answers And you got my situation figured out But you're only seeing part of the picture There's so much more that you don't know about And here you come to speak your mind But I'll say one more time
How do you know How do you know What I'm supposed to be doing Why do you go Why do you go on Thinking you know my faith So many times I've lost my step But never lost my way How do you know How do you know
How do you know How do you know What I'm supposed to be doing Why do you go Why do you go on Thinking you know know my faith So many times I've lost my step But never lost my way How do you know How do you know
How do you know How do you know What I'm supposed to be doing Why do you go Why do you go on Thinking you know my faith So many times I've lost my step But never lost my way How do you know How do you know
How do you know How do you know When I don't know myself When I don't know myself How do you know
I have decided to wait to start college for a semester. Now, before you complain about me getting sidetracked wth life, I'll let you know that I kno what I want to do and where I want to go, I just don't have the resources to do so. So I am taking a semester to gain those resources through working. My plan is to save as much money as possible, to buy a car, and to get used to the idea of being an adult and making my own decisions.
By starting college a semester later, I will: 1) get more financially sound 2) get more comfortable with life 3) understand better the work inolved with going to college and working at the same time 4) work myself into adult life with baby steps instead of trying to do everything at once 5) lessen my stress load A TON.
I don't know about you, but those all seem like very good reasons to wait to me. I have been thinking about this in the back of my head for a while, but haven't voiced it to anyone. I like making my own decisions, then bringing those to others for modification. But I also think that God has been trying to tell me to wait for college. I thought for quite a while that He was telling me to wait to know what He wants me to do, but now that I ahve actually focused on making tis decision, I am seeing that this is probably God's will. I see it as kind of like the story of Jacob and Rachel, where he had to work for years and years to get his bride. Well, I am orking for a semester to get better prepared for college. So I'm waiting for a year.
My new plan is basically my old one with a semester stuck before it. I am still moving out in October/November, I am still pransferring to WJU after I complete 24 units, and I am still going to ARC. The only difference is that I'll get a job this summer and work full time, move out in October or November after saving money and getting a car, then starting college in the Spring after I do all the other things. And I think this is right for me.
I have been worried about college money for quite some time now. I have always thought that I didn't care about how much my education cost, just that I was able to do what I wanted. But recently, because of the economy, I have been nervous and worried about it. I want to go to William Jessup University in Rocklin. It's a private Christian university, but it is pretty pricey. It would be smarter to go to a public school, or to not go to school, but that is not what I want to do. I am looking at the economy and thinking I ned to postpone college for a semester to get a job and start working first. That is the last thing I want to do, but it seems like the smartest option..
Yesterday, I was talking to Wes (the associate pastor at my church) about the fact that he has lost both of his jobs and his wife has lost hers in just the past few months. Which means they went from three incomes to none. Sherry (his wife) is in the process of possibly opening a new school (I think i's a Christian school) and that leaves them both in a place where they are not sure what to do next. He wants to only work at the church (that would mean not getting paid), but realistically is thinking that is not possible. He has a job offer (kind of) at a different school, but doesn't want to go work there. So he is torn between what he wants to do and what would be the most responsible thing to do. Yet he knows that he is in God's hands, no matter what ends up happening and that seeking God's will is the way to choose.
But my point isn't what's going on in their lives, it's that while talking to him and talking about my own worries about college money, I realized that we are in different circumstances, but the same problems are facing both of us. It's a battle between what would be the smartest option and what the desires of our hearts are. And we must trust in God for the answers. I don't know what will happen in my life. I don't know if I will be able to go to school. I don't know how much I will pay. But I know that somehow, some way, I need to find God's will and follow it.
A cool song about life before and after Christ! I couldn't find a good video of the Matthew Westversion, but Rascal Flatts redid it for the movie, "A Walk To Remember"
"The Day Before You" by Rascal Flatts
The Day Before You by Matthew West
I had all but given up on Finding the One that I could fall into On the day before You I was ready to settle for Less than love and not much more There was no such thing as a dream Come true Oh, but that was on the day before You
Now You're here and everything's changing And suddenly life means so much And I can't wait to wake up tomorrow And find out this promise is true I will never have to go back to The day before You
In Your Eyes, I see forever And it makes me wish that my life never knew The day before You Oh but heaven knows those years without You Were shaping my heart for the day that I found You And if You're the reason for all I've been through Then I'm thankful for the day before You
'Cause now You're here and everything's changing And suddenly life means so much And I can't wait to wake up tomorrow And find out this promise is true I will never have to go back to The day before You
It was the last day That I ever lived alone And I'm never going back No, I'm never going back
Now You're here and everything's changing And suddenly life means so much And I can't wait to wake up tomorrow And find out this promise is true I will never have to go back to I will never have to go back to The day before You The day before You
Oh, I'm never going back I'm never going back I'm never going back To the day before You
Hi! I basically use blogs to say to a piece of paper what I can't say as easily to the people I know. I encourage them to read my blog but my guess is most don't. If you read about me here, you will probably know more about me than most people.
